Friday, January 15, 2016

Sheep Dog or Dog Sheep?

It's been about a week and a half since I've returned to MIT, and although I'm having a lot of fun dancing and drawing regularly, I'm low-key stressing out over the fact that I've barely touched my thesis prep work that is due at the end of this month! I'm mainly struggling to decide what exactly I want to do with this thesis. We've technically picked topics already, but after meeting with my advisor at the end of last semester (where she gave an impassioned speech about how liberating and fulfilling a thesis is), I'm getting second thoughts on my current topic that, to be honest, I do not feel that strongly about. I'd like the culmination of my undergraduate career to be a in depth project of some sort, not a research paper. I've already found a stack of sources, and have even analyzed a few of them, but I just don't feel inspired in any way. That's why at this point I am unsure of whether to push forward, or backtrack and find some topic/plan that interests me more. I'm convinced that doing thesis work without passion will make for a not-so-enjoyable spring semester...or maybe I just need to suck it up. I did talk to a couple of friends who graduated in 2014 and their general advice was that the thesis is really just something you need to do to graduate and it doesn't need to be anything amazing. LOL more on this as it develops I suppose.

In more exciting news, I met with a recent MIT architecture alum (who also wasn't looking to become an architect) at a cute coffee shop last week. She didn't say anything too groundbreaking, but it was a really insightful talk! A lot of things she said were super relatable, and the whole experience just sort of relaxed me. Staying positive for the future! Now when people ask me what I want to do when I graduate, I can say: I want to become an illustrator. Fuck the fact that my portfolio is nowhere it needs to be in order to land an illustration job.  I will draw and draw and draw until some studio takes me.

Lunch with Mom and breakfast with Kaykay before catching my bus back to Boston! I tried to make the toast-with-fried-egg-middle thing...I think it was fairly successful :3 Also, I feel like i bonded with my family quite a bit over the course of the two weeks I spent at home. I don't often feel homesick while at school, but I've been feeling very homesick recently even though it's only been a week and a half so far. T__T 
At 1369 Coffee House with my architecture senpai. Check out their cute spin on the traditional tip jar!
Froyo at Berryline! Went with Ktian to grab curry at Cafe Mami and decided to make the trek to Berryline even though we were basically full. Their porter square location had TARO MOCHI. Was very exciting but tasted like normal mochi lol. Also it snowed the other day! Only like a tiny film of snow, but someone decided to make a mini snowman with the mini snowfall. Spotted on my way home after practice! It's only a few inches tall xD so cute.
I've always wanted to take one of these arial hipster photos. Featuring my sketchbook companion, trusty wooden ballpoint pen, and new Macbook Pro *__* 

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Thank you for reading :)