Neon Lights

Yes, I am blogging three days in a row.  Got a prob? No? Good.

Scarf that I started two years ago...I swear I'll finish it before Christmas. 

So today was pretty uneventful, woke up at 1 even though I promised myself I'd wake up at 9 to get college shit done.  If I put in half the effort that I put in blogging into applying to college, I'd probably be done already haha.  So I tutored, made some bank, and then proceeded to do absolutely nothing for the rest of the day.  You think I'm exaggerating, but I'm not.  We also put up the christmas tree today! And by  "we", I mean my mom and sister.  Somehow they managed to finish everything while I was busy doing nothing. I was also going to knit with Emma today (lol), but my parents got pissed since I hadn't finished my CMU essay.  Ah.  In other news, mara told me I should go tell Miller that I like him.  I told her it was an awful plan haha, that would completely screw me over.  And now here are some beautiful pictures, because I don't have anything else to say :)

Cheers :)

Lol, it's another masterpiece.  I call it "Eating and Talking". 

Mom and Kaykay decorating the tree ! 

Lol can you tell that I had fun taking pictures of the tree? Ahh I love the holiday season :)

Semi-Charmed Life

I said I would blog later about Friday....so here I am, blogging about it.

Tried to wake up early to go shopping...failed.  Ended up leaving the house at 11 lol.  Anyway, we (me and emma) went to short hills for some Black Friday deals.  Lol we are the laziest shoppers ever.  Our arms got tired after like half an hour of flipping through racks.  The new XXI Forever store opened up though, and it's ammazzinng.  It's on the first floor of the mall, but it has an escalator in it that goes to the basement.  Ahhh it was gorgeous.  I got a big sweater (that i'm wearing atm, so comfy ^_^) and a pair of blue and green polka-dotted over the knee socks.  My goal was to get a dress for band awards and a pair of heels, but obviously that didn't really turn out as planned. Anyway, I had an amazing chicken burrito from Qdoba, just thought i'd include that in here. After shopping, we went to the Grammerie.  Not sure if i spelled that right, but it's a new coffee shop that opened in town.  We got mango-strawberry smoothies and they were so goddamn delicious, ugh.

Mara and all present members of the drumline...in line for Santa!

Then we had to speed home, change, and go to the school for the Christmas Walk!  The parade was fun, but oh so painful.  We cadenced between each song so my arms never got a break.  I swear they were going to fall off.  But surprisingly they are still intact, making this blog post possible. Aren't I funny? Ha. Okay, so we tried a really stupid thing: The basses rotated in a circle around ryan while we were marching forward.  Surprisingly, none of us crashed.  I felt retarded doing it though.  It's even stupider than our drum-thrusts on the rim clicks, except I love doing them and it made me very sad that yesterday was the last time I'd get to do them (technically we have the memorial day parade, but that's like 6 months away).   Lol, i just realized that whoever reads this post probably has no idea what those last two sentences even meant.  Moving on, before the parade, Miller stroked my hair. Sounds cute and endearing, right? Wrong. He only does it because it pisses me off.  But when his hand moved across my face, I smelled axe.  Yes, I am a sucker for that stuff. It just smells so goddamn good! So I asked him if he was wearing it, and i was right (surprise surprise).  Well, he was actually surprised, because he smelled his hand and couldn't smell it, so he petted me again, and I smelled it again. Ahhh. What an ass hole.  Stupid idiot is so touchy sometimes, and it makes me think he might like me back.  But if I chat him on fb, he is so reticent.  Yes, i just used a SAT word, deal with it.  I thought guys were supposed to make the most of every opportunity to talk to a person they liked?  So using that info, I don't think he likes me at all.  I honestly need to get over him, the sooner the better.  I guess it'll be easier now that marching band is officially over.  Okay crap I digressed, again.

My masterpiece. I call it "Abs and the Ketchup Bottle".

Anyway, back to the Christmas Walk.  By the time we got back to the school, the whole drumline was sweating up a storm. It was disgusting!  The best part is that it was actually pretty cold outside haha.  I put my drum away, and right when I walked out the door, Markymark came up to me and asked me if I was going anywhere to eat.  (He's a sophomore...that has become too attached to me as of late) I told him yeah, with a bunch of my friends. He asked if he could come.  Keep in mind that we're seniors, and we're all girls.  I told him to go ask some of his guy friends to go with or whatever, but he muttered some random shit I barely heard, so I let him join us.  He was pretty awkward on the walk there, but thank the lord Victor decided to come too. Then it became instantly less awkward.  But like come on markymark. WHY.  We all went to get our picture with Santa, and then proceeded to the Diner where I got a delicious root beer float.  Then we met up with Dan and went to Ab's place for her leftover thanksgiving desserts. Yum. The actual hang out was average, I was a little tired and we just played rock band. Then I was supposed to have a sleepover with Mara and Emma, but my parents changed their minds at the last second because they were all pissed at me for not coming home earlier to pick up my stuff. Sorry mara :(

Not much happened today.  Tried to start my Carnegie Mellon essay for my app that's due in four days, but failed.  We had a shalomie practice though, and it went pretty well!  I proved to Dan that I could play "Tell Me Baby" and after the last note of the song he was really happy and hyper and kept going "YEAH. Sonya's the MAN".  Then victor made us hug.  I'm not a very huggy person, so I was all uhhhhhhh at first, but then I gave in.  Honestly, I thought I murdered the song, in a bad way.  I was surprised they thought I actually played it right because I was struggling the whole time haha, but i'll practice more and hopefully it'll be ready for the show on the 9th.  Ahh so excited!  We also decided on our set-list today, and the other cover (in addition to Tell Me Baby) is going to be [ Semi-Charmed Life ] by Third Eye Blind. It's pretttty damn catchy.

After the Shalomie practice, I sped over to the asian party I promised my parents I'd go to.  Stayed for only two hours and ate some delicious food.  Also we watched the movie "Just Go With It" which was fantastic.  After reading a barbie book to my sister, I left to go "work on college apps".  Well I mean, it was my intention, swear to god.....just didn't exactly happen.  What actually happened was getting some mint hot chocolate from Dunkin' (heaven in a cup) and then spending the next few hours doing nothing on the computer.  Typical.  Okay so I think I have a problem with this whole blogging thing.  I write waaaay too much in each post.  That's not supposed to happen, right?

Okay crap it's almost 2.  Goodnight!

Turkey Day Minus the Turkey

Ah! What a busy weekend, and it's only half over :)
So wednesday was a half day! After school I went with Victor, Alex, and Markymark to Guitar Center so we could get itkor a gift.  We got him a silver cowbell and a kalimba.  We're getting the cowbell engraved with our names for $100 lmao.  That's about three times more expensive than the actual cowbell, but i think it'll be worth it ^_^ Then we headed over to Dan's for a Shalomie practice.  Dan thinks that I can't play Tell Me Baby on bass, but I'll prove him wrong.  Honestly I'm kind of pissed off at how girly and evasive he is about the subject.  It's obvious that he thinks i can't do it, but to my face he acts all "yay! you can do it!"  Then to victor he gossips like a mofo.  Well, that was an exaggeration, but still.  Anyway, after the practice I picked up Nicole, Mara, and Courtney for some Tito's Burritos! Some people like to call it Tit's Burrit's.  Har de har.  I got this stuff called "Boing!" and it's the sketchiest, unlabeled bottle, with nothing except for the name on it.  But it's soooo delicious ahhhh.  It's basically just mango juice.  Anyway, we ordered and halfway through, my mom calls me and throws a hissy fit because she wanted me to eat at home. Of course she decides that suddenly I'm not allowed out, so I had to go home while my friends met up with more people and got free donuts.  Feels pretty good, no?

Lol Mara straddling my drum.

Thursday was....Thanksgiving!  And that meant the annual game between us and GL.  We had to get to the school at 7:15 for hair braiding!  Lol i got there at 7:30 and wasn't done until 7:50.  Then I ran into the band room right when Miller and Ryan were about to leave, but then they saw me and waited :) Surprisingly enough, itkor showed up for the game!  He never comes to games, ever, period.  I think it's because it'd be the last time we would perform our show, and he was going to miss us so much :) The game was good; we won, surprise surprise. Take that GL.  Also, this Romeo kid accidently decked one of the refs during the game (he was aiming for some guy on our team but missed).  It took them like 15 minutes to figure out who to give penalties and whatnot to.  Yeah... I still don't really understand how the whole football thing works.  It's not like I've seen every single football game our team has played for the past four years or anything.  Now that'd just be silly.  I can't believe that was my last time playing stands music with everyone.  I'm really going to miss it :\  But I will definitely come back to visit them next year on Thanksgiving!

Basses in order...5..4..3..2..1 !

Thursday night I helped my mom cook some delicious food.  Ugh I was so stuffed afterward! No self-control what-so-ever.  And yes, my family eats Chinese food on Thanksgiving, deal with it. I won't name any names (Miller), but some people think it's very weird that we don't have turkey/mashed potatos/cranberry sauce/stuffing/etcetc.  Actually, we used to! But then we realized that turkey sucks, and that Chinese food is in fact, superior. Not much actually happened besides for that.  I find Thanksgiving to be a pretty boring holiday actually.  I just hung with my sister for a bit, played some piano, watched some TV, and stared at nothing for a few hours.  All in all, a good day haha.  Okay so now it's almost 2 am, and I'm tired as poop.  I'll blog tomorrow about today!  Actually, technically it's already tomorrow...so i'll blog later today about yesterday. Lol I am so obnoxious, okay goodnight!

Our delicious asian Thanksgiving

Cinderella Man

Oh of course it's almost 1 am and I just started this post.
So this weekend was busy! Friday we had Shalomie practice right after school, and then i went to see the play.  It was the Miracle Worker, and ended up being surprisingly good, although I kind of wish I didn't have to sit through the whole thing lol. Afterwards I went to Red Mango with Sarah, Gabe, and Thomas. Dan, Victor, and Ben were going to meet us there, but Dan took them home before we got there because he didn't want Thomas and Gabe to judge Victor and Ben for being high out of their minds lol.  I was surprised that Ben smoked too, and so was sarah.  Never expected it from him to be honest.  Lol the next day victor had an awful headache from taking too many hits haha.

Lol mara.

Moving on to saturday, we had our last football game :(  I say last because we lost lol.  If we had won we could've gone to Metlife for finals! But we didn't. So we don't. It was a close game though, we were winning until they scored a touchdown in the final two minutes! Our football team looked so sad after the game, with their heads hung low and kind of moping around.  That must be what it feels like to lose northern states or something. :\ so I can empathize.  Anyway, after the game I went home and helped my mom cut branches from the tree that fell during the snow storm.  When it was almost dark we started the ceremony for my grandma.  It's a chinese custom where you take three sticks of incense, make your prayers to her, stick them in a pot, and wait until they are completely burned out.  It's done on the 35th day after passing and it happens right after sun down when it's not too dark yet.  We wish her a good journey from this world, into the next (that's what happens on the 35th day).  It was really touching hearing my mom talk to her mom.  I couldn't talk out loud, so I prayed in my thoughts.  You were the best  grandma ever, have fun in heaven with grandpa ! ♥ 

The Ryan Tunney Band!

Last night I went to a concert since Dan was filling in for some guy in the Ryan Tunney Band.  Apparently their bassist was having bad emotional problems and couldn't do the show.  So I went in my shitty band/yard work hair and all my friends were there, dressed up with nice make up. Haha i felt like shit.  But the band was decent, and the next band was amaazzinngg.  They were all asian, filipino i think, but no mara, that has nothing to do with it.  They were all really talented, the lead singer had an amazing voice, the drummer had awesome hair, and everyone was just radiating energy. It was fantastic.  I'm pissed that I can't remember their stupid name though because I want to find them on facebook! Crap. Now it's almost 2. Double crap. I'm talking to Markymark on fb about his crush on sarah haha. No, not the sarah that gabe is dating.  This sarah is a sophomore who loads of guys like, and she's kind of slutty, but mara says it's only because she is insecure about herself. :\  Okay, i am digressing.  Anyway, after the concert, I drove markymark to pick up miller, ryan, and perry for some Sweet Orange. Yes, i am obsessed with frozen yogurt. Also it turns out that Miller has been cheating in Words with Friends...so the bet is off.  I'm glad he told me though, he said he felt guilty making me pay for his ill-earned froyo.  Anyway, we met mara there, and I stuffed myself with frozen goodness. ^_^ Yum.  Then we all went to mara's to watch High School Musical China! Lmao.  It wasn't nearly as magical as I hoped it would be, but hey, atleast I can say i've watched it.  The plot was ehhh but the dancing was amazing.  Also I somehow recognized some of the songs...Oh, and at the very beginning when we picked seats, I sat down on the couch first.  Then ryan made a beeline for the seat next to me.  Then miller came in the room and mara goes "SHAWTY NEXT TO SONYA" hahaha. Honestly I was hoping to be able to sit next to miller but oh well.  I still love you mara :) and hugging your knee for half the movie was enjoyable.  But if something like that ever happens again please let him sit next to me hahaha.  I cuddled more with ryan that night than miller which is a no no.  He kept putting his filthy cheater head on my shoulder and being all "noooo son son! They aren't going to kiss!"  Yes, sadly in the chinese version, troy and gabriella don't kiss. :( Anyway, then i drove them home, and while we were climbing up mara's mountain of a driveway, ryan tackle hugged me, and then miller kind of pretended to help push me up the hill, so i did a pretend-trust fall which ended in his putting his arms around my waist so i wouldn't fall haha.  Goddamn it miller, sometimes you are so huggy and warm, and other times you are so removed and cold.  I thought girls were supposed to be the ones that are hard to figure out, not the other way around!  On an additional note, I just want to explain why i called ryan a filthy cheater:  He has a girlfriend. Friday night, he went to watch Breaking Dawn with a bunch of people and his girlfriend's best friend.  His actual girlfriend couldn't go.  Then he made out with her for 5 minutes.  On saturday while we were watching HSM China, he was flirt-texting with both of them. WTF, honestly? Lol i wouldn't stop bringing it up hahaha.  But then miller said "you haven't done anything wrong if she doesn't find out". Fuck, i will kill that kid.  He was kidding, but what an asshole! Ahhhh!!


And on that angry note, I'm going to go read as much of Pride and Prejudice I can in the next half hour.  I'm supposed to have 132 pages read by tomorrow lol. I have 0 read. Crap. 


Okay, shit, it's 2:17, goodnight!

Cut the Pickle, Tickle Tickle

I was so out of it today!  Probably because I've gotten minimal sleep for the past 3 days.

Anyway, today we had our last marching band practice.  It wasn't really a practice, more like a closure day.  Haha actually it wasn't that either.  Mr. N just had us vote for the different awards and then announced that we would be having a march off that night for anyone interested.  This was something he'd never done before.  We usually have one big march off during band camp and that's the last one for the season.  But anyway, probably more than half of the band showed up on leider field and blocked it up under the lights.  Miller called me to make sure I was coming, but I was already there hahaha.  So guess what?  I won the march off!  How crazy is that?  During band camp I was one of the first people out.  As soon as I started moving from my spot, my section ran up to congratulate me, and miller was about to give me a hug....but mara beat him to it hahahaha.  She ran from the side and got to me like a second before him.  Lol better luck next time Miller.  Anyway, afterwards we got in a giant circle around the big NP on the turf and held hands.  Mr. N said something inspirational (i forget what it was) and we did our "HUT!" in our circle.  I was inbetween Victor and Sunny, and they crushed my hands when we were told to "squeeze".   That might've been my fault though for trying to out crush them with my nonexistent drumline muscles.

Anyway, time to sleep!

Nighty night!

Nationals, Bitch.

Long story short, we won group 6A USSBA Northern States (AKA Nationals).  Not to mention best percussion.

Now here's the long story.

So after rushing to the school 20 minutes late for hair braiding, I furiously wrote my last notes for the drumline.  Mr. N gave us a big motivational speech (while i secretly wrote letters) and we loaded the busses.  I don't really remember the ride there.  I think me and Miller just listened to his ipod and ate lunch.  Anyway, we got to Allentown, peed, got our instruments, crossed over the little bridge, and started warming up.  During the warm up Itkor kept making comments like "Really?  Is that how you want to play today?" and "Do you want to walk off that fielding thinking you could've played better?".  Basically negative stuff.  That got us all scared into thinking we were going to be awful.  Before we went on, I asked Itkor to give us the speech that he gives every year during Northern States.  He almost didn't, but then he gave in.  It goes a little something like this: "So when I was a freshman, a sophomore, and a junior in the marching band, I always made fun of the seniors for crying at the last competition.  I knew I would never cry.  But when I hit the last set of the closer in my final show senior year, I raised my head and tears were streaming down my face."  I've heard this speech four times, but this time it made me tear up.  I had to fight them back into my eyeballs.

Ryan and Miller.  With Dan creeping.  Post-Crying-my-face-off.
....Can you tell? -_-

Drumline cupcakes!

Then we marched back over that little bridge (for the last time) and entered the gate, waiting for Scotch Plains Fanwood to finish their show.  Then Ryan said "Okay guys, lets do this one for Sonya!"  Being the emotionally unstable person I was today, I started to tear up again.  When my basses came up to me one by one and hugged me, I lost it lol.  In my defense, it wasn't that bad....nothing compared to later haha.  Anyway, we had the stick orgy, group-touched Nobody's head, and proudly marched onto the field.  I'm not gonna lie here, our actual show was not the best we could've played.  The basses messed up a bunch of entrances, and I even forgot a few notes (aka something that never happens).  When I walked off that field I was slightly let down, thinking that we had blown the last competition.  We put our drums down and sat in the stands for the award ceremony.  When third place had been announced, me, Ryan, and Miller held hands.  The little 5 second wait for 2nd place stretched on forever, and we stood there nervous as hell.  When they said that Jackson Memorial had gotten it, with no caption awards, we knew that we had gotten first, and (more importantly?) best percussion!  They finally announced it, and I completely lost it.  I was crying like crazy and we were all hugging like crazy.  I don't think I've ever cried that much in public before.  Especially crying because of happiness.  Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever even cried because I was happy.  Except a little when kaykay was born, but I digress.  When Victor walked back from the retreat holding the percussion plaque, we group hugged him.  Even he was in tears at this point!  Haha we were a mess, it was ridiculous.  Afterwards we cadenced back to the busses, banging the shit out of our drums.  After getting on the bus I broke out the cupcakes that I had made two days ago.  Everyone pulled out their phones and snapped pictures haha :)  The bus ride back was also a blur.  All I remember was a lot of music and singing.  I think i was euphoric lol.  To finish off the night, the drumline went out to East for some quality sushi.

I know none of you will see this, and hopefully never will see this, but I am going to miss you all so much.  I am so proud of you guys !  In Mara's words, what a beautiful ending to a beautiful four years. :)

Drumline Forever ♥

I Am Such a Gamer

No, actually not at all.

Anyway, not much happened this week: Went to school, tutored twice ($$$), and went to band.  They were my last two night rehearals... ever!  My mind doesn't seem to be able to wrap itself around that fact.  My friends think I love band more than a normal person should lol, but i'm perfectly okay with that.  Anyway, during the wednesday practice we had naked band!  It's basically when the upperclassmen go shirtless for the run-through.  Weirdly it wasn't freezing like it usually is in november, so I was actually hot when we finished (I wore a tank, closest i'm getting to naked band)  A lot of people didn't do it, but the whole drumline did :)  First the snares ditched their shirts, so i ordered my basses to go strip.  They were like "but you can see my boxers" "awwn sonya do we have to?" and i was like "yes." Hahaha.  You know what bothers me?  How are they all so fit?  Jesus christ it's not fair!  I don't want massive abs, but it would be nice to have maybe like an ounce of muscle in my stomach.  It's probably because I just sit and blog all day.  That would explain it.  Atleast I have intense finger muscles.  But enough about my muscles, lets talk about their muscles. Lol jk.

.....they are pretty nice though.  And so smooth looking.... 

On another note (get it? cuz it's band) I taped the run-through!  With my trusty iFlip.  Miller, Ryan, and Mike helped me tape it onto my drum.  The taping job was shit though because when i went to go watch the video, most of it was just the sky.  You can only see the band in a strip at the bottom.  I'll probably re-record it saturday....at senior farewell. :( I hope I don't cry, that would be really embarrassing.

Today I went shopping with my mom and kaykay.  It sucked.  Tutored, which was okay I guess.  And then I went to Steve's for drumline gaming night.  It didn't suck as much as I thought it would.  Miller and Ryan couldn't go though, stupid idiots.  Apparently Miller is pro at videogames so it would've been amazing if he were on our team (since we were doing basses vs. snares)  I found out that I suck at Halo Reach.  But I got three kills!  But I jumped off a cliff once, so that was -1 point.  I also got killed atleast 100 times.  And no that's not an exaggeration.  Pretty sure the other team got like most of their kills because of me lol.  Mario Kart was actually really fun and I didn't shit at it.  Except when we played this level with a bridge cuz I fell off of it 9 times in one round.  Brawl was fun too.  The only character I can play with is kirby though because he can fly.  I always manage to make myself fall off the platform, so thank god for kirby's flying capabilities.  This is random, but steve has fantastic soda at his house.  He's got that oranges n' creme stuff and also creme soda.  Oh heaven on earth.  He's also obsessed with video games holy shit.  His gaming corner is filled with all these different consoles, and he has a big shelf stuffed with games.  Not to mention the halo action figures, the giant halo helmet, and the HUGE halo poster.  Hmmm I see a pattern here.

Okay I'm really tired now.  I was going to make a quick post and then hit the hay, but somehow I ended up typing more than I wanted (hey what's new) and browsed k-pop music videos.  But now I'm going to sleep.  Gotta wake up early for art homework if I want to go ice skating later !!

Also...senior farewell/football game/last competition coming up in two days.  Ahhhhhhh !!!

State Champs

YYEEAAAHH state champs 2011 ! :)

So incase you don't get it, we won states today!
We were against 3 other bands, it was pretty legit.  I think we won by about .6 of a point.  But we lost percussion by about .2 of a point.  We'll get em next week at northern states though.  Apparently they changed the name to "nationals" but that's pretty pointless because bands from about 3 - 4 states compete in it.  Not very national if you ask me.

So today I woke up ridiculously early for a stupid morning practice that ran 9-12.  Stayed up till about 4 last night making little cartoon index cards (with messages) for my section.  I can't believe it's my last year, and we only have one competition left :(  Today Mr. N was talking about how it was almost over for the seniors, and I legitimately had to hold back tears.  Maybe I will cry at the last set of the last show... just like Itkor.

After the competition, I went with Perry, Miller, Markymark, Alex, and Victor to get some dinner.  First we went to Wasabi, then realized we didn't have enough money to afford an actual meal, so we bought rice, ice cream, and soup to not seem too rude.  It was hilarious. Markymark bought a bowl of plain white rice and that was it. lol. Alex and Victor ended up leaving after Wasabi, but the rest of us went next door to Hacienda for some nice mexican food.  We talked about so much random stuff, like Jason Mango's sex life. Lmao. He's 17 and fucking with a 14 year old.  She had an STD scare so they had to break up (cuz the parents were all grrrrr) and then he got a hand job from this girl in the color guard.  Perry was freaking out because he's friends with Mango and the color guard girl and her innocent image pretty much was shattered in his eyes.  It was kind of sad to see because he was actually upset by it.  In other news, Miller told me he loved me.  Before you start freaking out, it was a joke !  But he still said it and then choke/hugged me.  Actually it was a nice hug before I told him I hated him, then it turned into a choke.  Also when I dropped him off at his house, he kind of awkwardly reached for my shoulder and ended up patting it a couple times.  He thanked me for the ride.  I thanked him for the pats.  Hahaha it was an awkward scene, trust me.

So after that, I sped over to dan's house for a little Shalomie jam session.  It was pretty good, I love my band :)  Well, most of the time.  Schendt is kind of a huge ass hole. lol.  He's a racist pig.  That aside, we are probably performing at the local venue in December!  Ahhh!  I'm kind of excited!  (Even though that place is pretty pathetic since the audience is always lame as heck).  Okay now i am going to sleep!  I just wanted to post about tonight before I forgot to.  I'll blog about the power outage tomorrow!

Power

...is a fantastic song (by Kanye).

Haven't blogged in a few days since the crazy storm cut off our power for a little over 3 days.
So the big news?  I APPLIED TO COLLEGE. I DID IT.  With over an hour to spare ! Haha, sitting in someone else's house furiously applying to college at 10:15pm on November 1st is not fun.

I have lots of stories to tell but it's 1:43 and I still have to make goodie bags for tomorrow's competition !! Ahh! States!

Nighty night, and good luck mara on your SATs !! You can do it giirrll !

22 Hours

That's exactly how much time I have before I need to submit my early action college apps.

Surprisingly I'm not freaking out, but maybe that's because it's 2 am.

Today I came to realize that honestly, essays aren't worth it to freak out over.  A few tweaks here or there aren't going to make or break my app.  Also I realized that all I need to do is be true to myself.  It's my app.  Not my dad's.  Not my English teacher's.  Not my friend's. Mine.

A few hours ago I felt like curling up and crying my heart out.  Now I feel on top of the world.  Is that weird?

Tomorrow Today I'm gonna finish these up and still have time to go to red mango :)

'Night!