Feels like Summer !

The weather has been so warm lately!  Actually that's an understatement: It's hot as hell, so hot that i decided to ditch a blanket while i slept...so now i have a fantastically sore throat and this annoying hack of a cough, just in time for the weekend ! Greeeaaaattt.  But besides for that, life is pretty good :)  Summer is just around the corner, kind of, and SAT scores came out yesterday ~! 800 on physics nbd, i literally jumped out of my seat and leapt for joy ( i thought i failed it ).  There are alot of things i haven't blogged about (i realized after looking through my camera), so i'll try to run through some random boring events in my life that have happened in the past month.  First up is probably this art show i went to a billion years ago.  A lot of the stuff there was absolutely amazing.  Seriously, i couldn't stop staring at them.  My teacher submitted the oil pastel bottle i drew a while ago, can you spot it?  Although i have a phobia of bugs, i was in love with the the colored pencil (?) wasp next to mine. 

This was a picture that i was completely obsessed with.  It seems so effortless and just, well, amazing.  My dad kept nagging me about why i was "wasting" my time looking at that one when there were so many super fancy oil paintings hanging up.  Anyway, the  reception was good, and the food even better :) What pissed me off were the pieces that they picked to receive awards. I felt like most of the ones they picked were actually somewhat poorly executed.  There were definitely some in my opinion that deserved awards, but didn't get any.  On the brightside, Juliana from my art class got an honorable mention! Her's is the fish that's next to mine (scroll up to admire). 

So i bet you're wondering what that amazingly delicious looking, masterfully crafted dish is? Its what i made my mom for mothers day!  After trying to wake up at 6 to make her breakfast and failing, i tumbled out of bed at around 11 just in time for lunch.  It wasn't fancy, but it tasted yummy :) Also, how boss is that picture?  Photo cred goes to my dad, who's extremely proud of his food photography skills.  It actually does look really nice though: Sharply focussed in the foreground, and blurry in the background.  I recently found some nice blogs on blogger, one of which belongs to a woman who is an amazing photographer.  She takes pictures of random everyday things, and her three adorable kids. It's fantastic, really.  But i think she decided to make her blog private after a bunch of creepers started commenting on it, so now i can't see her updates :'( .  Oh well.  The other blog that i absolutely loved is written by a girl named Sonia Eryka who lives in Indonesia and blogs about fashion, music, and her life (which is way more eventful than mine, and she's less than one year older than me !)  She is about to launch her own line and doesn't seem 17 at all!  Seriously, i could easily peg her as a girl recently out of college and making a living off of fashion.  Here's a link to her blog [ click! ] Did i mention that she's gorgeous?  I feel some sort of weird connection, and i think it's because we have the same name haha (well technically, mine is spelled with a "y" but lets not be picky now hmm?)  The message i got from her blog?  Stop worrying about pointless things, and just live your life!  Seriously, if you put your mind to it, you can make whatever you want out of yourself.  Also, being a hedonist isn't a crime :)  Neither is randomly chucking SAT vocab into a blog post. (I get to take them again next saturday AKA prom weekend! Fantastic, huh?)  Anyway, continuing with the boring recap of the things that make up my life... It's my sister! Notice how her hair's wet?  Well that's because we just finished playing in her new sprinkler.... which is actually this giant oversized beach-ball-esque-thing that shoots water out of random holes.  It's absolutely fantastic.

Haha, isn't that great?? Also, the other day kaykay got a ballon, and my dad came up with this game where he would raise her up and she would try to catch it.  Of course i took a billion pictures, it was adorable !
It didn't last long though because my dad's arms were about to fall off (not literally).  Kaykay's like 98475 pounds (again, i kid you). You can't tell from this picture, but she's wearing this super cute hello kitty shirt (yes, i know that's really asian). We got it for her when we went to old navy. Yes, it was my first time going shopping in the past decade.  God, i can't wait to go shopping for real though as soon as SATs are over next weekend.  If you didn't get the insinuation, my mom wouldn't let me go shopping for the past forever because of testing and other bs reasons, etc etc. On the brightside, i got a few shirts, and a swimsuit from there.  I was pleasantly surprised by the swimsuit though.  Usually the stuff there fits really awkwardly and is too big, but this one was perf, and didn't feel like an old navy suit at all!  I would go into deets, but at this point you're probably half asleep. It's 3 am lol, why am i awake again?

So today my family went to THE DYNASTY for dim sum!  Actually technically it was yesterday because it's 3 fucking am right now.  Oh wait, did i mention that it's 3?  I didn't? Well it is.  Anyway, it was to celebrate my parent's anniversary!  I absolutely love that place.  Their food is heaven served in little bit-sized form.  I forgot what happened but my sister burst into tears during the middle of it.  I think it was because my dad got up from his chair and moved so i could take a picture of him and my mom.  But whatever it was, we solved the problem by taking a million photos of her.  Notice how i don't look that amused in the picture? Ha.

And i randomly included this picture because i was scrolling through pics and found it mildly entertaining.  So there you go :) 

And the above pic you ask?  It was the giant cup of strawberry smoothie i made a few hours ago when i started this blog.  (and it was delicious)  The little pot is a toothpick holder we've had for probably 8 years or so, and my dad broke it :'(  

Anyway, i finished that smoothie a while ago.  I also downed a bottle of coke. Yay for blogging at 3 am! (3:08 to be exact, but hey who's keeping track) God my sleep-pattern is completely screwed up.  On the brightside, i managed to listen to all of Supercell's new album [ Today is a Beautiful Day ] while typing up this monster of a post.  No i'm not japanese, but i do love their music, and their art is ammazziinngg !  Supercell is made up of 11 people: one who actually produces the music, and the rest who are illustrators, designers, and animators.  Check them out if you're interested~  Okay, i really need to stop typing.  Gotta go to sleep so i can wake up bright and early for some hardcore studying !  Ha, as if.  Anyway, hopefully i'll go to the beach next weekend, after i completely destroy my SATs of course :')

Night! 3:28. HA.

Love, Sonya (:

Lolz.

Hey mara :)
How cheap is this?? hahaha

Freedom Week?

Not.  I almost had 4 whole days of freedom.  And by freedom i mean going out for a few hours every night.  Today i went out for Indian food, and it was fantastic, but then my mom called and yelled at me over the phone to go home right away and do work.  Ha. It's a fucking friday night, and i have to go home to do fucking homework that's due NEXT FUCKING THURSDAY.  Are you kidding me?  And i kind of hate myself because i listened and drove home.  Then i went on the computer, which triggers a screaming match.  Not only am i not allowed out, i also can't GO ON THE COMPUTER.  This week hasn't even been that easy.  You'd think with APs and SAT IIs done, i wouldn't have any homework right?  Completely wrong. I've been stressing over a stupid art project and i had so much tutor homework that was due yesterday (thursday).  Which i obviously did. So the point is, that my parents don't need to breathe down my back and tell me exactly when i need to do my work.  Who the hell cares as long as it's finished on time!?  Is this even normal ???  A friend told me that i need to just stop stressing, and i'm trying but i can't!  How can i when my parents are constantly telling me i'm not good enough, i need to work harder, my grades aren't up to their standards, all i do is slack, and i socialize too much. EXCUSE ME. I've barely gone anywhere for the past few months.  Don't even try to tell me that i need to balance my social life with my work.  Why? Because i don't HAVE a social life (that sounds so pathetic).  I always have to say no to my friends for everything, and even when i'm allowed to go, my parents somehow change their minds literally an hour before, so i have to call and be a total bitch by canceling.  I've always tried to be that person who didn't get all insecure about things, or atleast tried not to tell anyone about it, but i might as well post it on this piece of shit that i call my blog because no one reads it anyway (except for you guys, and i know you won't judge me for being such a whinny bitch in this post).  I'm scared that i'm going to lose my friends because i can never be there for them or go to places or support them (except for the voice recital mara, you rocked!).  I feel removed from everyone, and sometimes i'm scared that i'm going to become a boring soulless monster from the black lagoon (lmao, i'm jk-ing btw, i'm not actually scared of turning into a lake monster).  But i am worried about becoming a boring person (if i'm not already -_- ).   Sometimes i feel like that awkward outsider, even if i'm just with emma and some of her friends which is absolutely ridiculous because me and emma are supposed to be best friends right? I don't blame her though because i know it's my fault that i can never do anything.  Sometimes i feel sorry for my friends because they have to deal with me.  And i feel sorry for my parents because i'm such a disappointment in their eyes.   They just wanted an obedient, smart daughter who gets straight A's, can speak perfect chinese, and plays the piano and violin.  But what do they get? They get me. The girl who can hardly read chinese.  Who quit piano and plays the drums.  Who occasionally gets B's on her report card (goddamnit hornstein).  And who doesn't know her role as a grateful daughter.  Sometimes i try to be all the things that they want, but no matter how hard i try, it's never enough.  I feel like such a failure, but i know i'm supposed to love myself no matter what, and i shouldn't let my parents get to me.  But it's just so hard to ignore them.  Some one once told me that i'm too sensitive, and maybe they're right.  I don't know how to change that though.  And btw, i don't want anyone to get the wrong idea.  Most of the time i hate my house and i can't wait to leave this place, but i know that i owe alot to my family.  They've housed, clothed, and fed me for 17 fucking years and only want the best for my future, but i really wish they could just back off and let me go.  I'm so lucky to be living the life i am, and i feel selfish wanting more, but i do and i can't help it.  I feel so guilty whenever i think about it. (okay swear to god, i need to fix that. I feel guilty over everything all the time, it actually pisses me off lol).  I know this blog entry completely sucks but typing it all out relieves alot of stress.  Sorry if you had to read this! I'll try to salvage this post by adding some random pictures:

A turkey! The first time i saw one. I freaked and took alot of pictures lol.

Some guy at the beach who was into the whole low-pants thing. Really suits him.

Trying to be artsy.  This was the sunset from the boat we were on this summer (cruise). Pretty huh?

The amazing band that performed on the boat. Lovelovelove them.

I creeped on some awesome asians playing mah-jong (on the boat). 

My sister and her fat cheeks :)

Some super spicy (and delicious) thing my mom made. Lmao this is so random. 

Art homework i did a month or so ago. In the corner is my sister's hand! And yes, that's tofu ^_^

The current art project that's completely screwing with my life.  The unfinished one with the yellow and blue is painted.  The other is markered (lmao is that a word?), and the piece of crap in the back is going to somehow become a cutout that i'm going to ink and print. 

Thanks for reading my ridiculously long post ! Hope you didn't fall asleep (:

♥ Sonya

Should i blog because my stalker demands it?

Apparently the answer is yes. :)
I hope you're satisfied to be reading about nothing lol.

Anyway....TESTING IS FINALLY DONE!
5 APs and 2 SATIIs down...0 to go ! HA. Take that collegeboard.

So at the moment i'm eating extra crunchy peanut butter and thinking of what to actually write, because my life is mainly uneventful.  How sad.

... i just folded laundry, cleaned my room, and came back. And i still don't have anything to say. Don't you regret nagging me to post? :)

lol and i just went back to my room and cleaned some more.  It's so neat that it's actually kind of borderline creepy.

And i just had dinner. It's actually been 4 hours since i started this post, and i still haven't gotten anywhere.

Okay, so i guess i should talk about my 2 weeks since my last post.  I studied. It sucked. I took tests. They sucked.  That's pretty much it.

On the brightside, it's finally Freedom Week which is kind of a misnomer, because i still have alot of homework to start/finish for my tutor in two days.  Okay, that wasn't exactly a brightside :\  I'm starting to think that i suck at happy upbeat posts.  Anyway, today i went out to lunch with nicole and dan (for open lunch) and we went to coppola's.  I got this giant sandwhich thing with red peppers, eggplant, mozzarella, and spinach in it.  It was amazing, but then we were almost last, so we had to run back to the school.  It was probably the most excercise i've done in a long time lol, and i was dying. I need to start working out. So good story, right?

Haha, moving on, on saturday mara and courtney came over to work on a japanese video project about the three R's: reduce, reuse, recycle.  The vid turned out pretty good in my opinion, there was a fantastic clip of this guy in another group who was dressed in this weird white plastic thing from head to toe, carrying a wand.  He was the recycling fairy. lol.

Also recently i discovered that taylor swift is kind of amazing :).  My friend was disillusioned by my lack of TS songs, and sent me 10 songs (which i'm actually listening to at the moment) I'm enchanted to listen to them (: ha, clever right?

There're some things to look forward to this week! SATS! lmao jk.  Friday i'm going out with a bunch of friends to some Indian place abby picked. And then...DISNEY SLEEPOVER.  It's the real deal, and it's here!

Anyway, i gotta go write an advice letter for any prospective apush students :) it's definitely gonna be filled with warnings haha

Maybe next time i'll blog about something actually interesting :)